The panic has set in.

First exam is tomorrow morning and I am shitting it.
Had my first panic attack since I started on these new drugs today. I planned to pop down to Superdrug to pick up some essentials and get in a bit of exercise as a study break but the streets were full of Christmas shoppers, darting in and out, getting in my way. I couldn't see a path, my vision blurred, my lungs froze, a vice like fist around my heart, tears streaming down my face.
It has totally unhinged me. I've not managed to do anything productive since.

The boy is also spying on me. I left my computer out and then came back into the room to find him searching through my browsing history, looking at all the sites I've visited, including this blog. I was so angry. I can't quite explain why, it's just like a breach of privacy, if he wanted to know something why can't he ask me? No need to snoop.

Right now it's 5pm and freezing, I've just sat here for an hour and a half not really doing anything. I am going to put more clothes on and then try and learn some more things. I can't eat, it suits me fine. I hope I can sleep tonight, the weekend is hectic.

Another mobile upload, from before the snow.
A crisp Autumn morning.