Take me as I am ‘cause there’s no guarantee I’ll ever change

I have amazing friends.
Truly amazing.


This morning I had no hope. I could not get out of bed. I didn't want to see the day. I felt utterly useless. Unable to achieve anything.
Tree called me. She made me write out a plan for the day, talked me through how to get up, what to wear, what to eat, what to pack. She called me every 1/2 hour to make sure I was on track until I got out and to the library. It was not a good morning. Or afternoon by that point. I spent the next 2 hours trying to cry subtly and look busy so noone would notice me. Then we had tea and she produced flowers for me to put on my desk and remind me that life's not that bad. It did the trick. I went back to my desk with my yellow flowers and felt quietly smug when people stared.
I managed to write another 400 words today. 

Then came home and played with Jesus and George. 
I feel quite full of hilarity. I like Jesus, and George, and Cupcakes. These are all positive things in my life :)

Jesus never left anyone and told them God wanted them to be sick.
He's a pretty cool guy.


Tomorrow is a new day. I welcome it's challenges.