From the new coke advert:
Whether I'm right or whether I'm wrong
Whether I find a place in this world or never belong
I gotta be me, I've gotta be me
What else can I be but what I am
I want to live, not merely survive
And I won't give up this dream
Of life that keeps me alive
I gotta be me, I gotta be me
The dream that I see makes me what I am
That far-away prize, a world of success
Is waiting for me if I heed the call
I won't settle down, won't settle for less
As long as there's a chance that I can have it all
I'll go it alone, that's how it must be
I can't be right for somebody else
If I'm not right for me
I gotta be free, I've gotta be free
Daring to try, to do it or die
I've gotta be me
Meh.
It made me stop crying and listen to it for a minute. But now I'm not so convinced.
I don't know why I'm crying. I kinda just want to talk. But I don't know what to say.
I don't fancy facing life tomorrow. I have no reasoning for not having faced it previously. I have to talk to Carol. But no idea what I'll say. I just feel a bit pathetic and useless. Well a lot pathetic.
I like The Sims. It's really good for distraction. But I really shouldn't just play all night. I cannot sleep. I tried to sleep earlier. It's been an hour. I want to go back to sims. I think I shall.
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Therefore, I will now persuade her, and bring her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her. From there I will give her her vineyards and make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will respond as in the days of youth, as at the time when she came out of the land of Egypt. Hosea 2:14-15
ReplyDeleteYou are being spoken to tenderly, Heather.
You are being given a life source - things to tend and to grow that will bear fruit.
There IS a door of hope.
You are loved.