Bring it back now, yeah.

I need to regain control.
I need to be in charge.
I've given up the coffee, given up the cigarettes.
It is all about me, and I have got a lot to answer for.
I've been stretched.
I've done bad, but that's okay.
It's time to bring it back.
It's all about me.

Today I've had the worst caffeine withdrawal headache despite having the equivalent of 4 cups of coffee with pills. I hope that tomorrow will be better. The first day's always the worst. My body just needs to get used to it. I need to rely on me. Not caffeine or nicotine. I can't afford to, more than anything else. Smoking is also disgusting. I want to stop.

I'm writing my plans.
Need to keep on top of life.
There's still so much to be done.

This is my choir.
This is where I've been tonight.
With these joyful faces.
Oh how I love this choir.
(That's me playing bass).
(And the ex playing trumpet).
I hope you enjoy.



Thanks for your support guys, today in class we were talking about whether facebook and blogging communities could be thought of as social capital. My lecturer said that for many people, blogging communities are much more real than any other they're part of. I think that's true. Here, I'm not afraid to say anything. I know I'm not judged, and I know that you guys are always there for me. It's like I've found lots of people that are like me enough to understand, who get me, and love me, whatevs. I love that about you guys, thank you so much. <3


Also, Lisa, I am not Stephen. My name is Heather. I'm sorry he hurt you, but please, take your bitterness elsewhere.