"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." (The Holiday)
One day.
Here's to hoping that that "one day" is right around the cornor just waiting patiently for us.
ReplyDeleteSam
Sometimes one days appear overnight, as if by magic, and are just sitting there when you wake. I sincerely hope yours comes soon. (And you deserve to be aware of your true worth and to be happy as you. Just you. Not someone's perception of you.) ♥
ReplyDeleteits hard to forget the things you loved to remember, even though you dont want to remember them because they bring back painful memories.
ReplyDeletei used to have a little purse full of conversations, and letters, and drawings that i would go through and read sometimes. i burned them.
memories are better, no one but yourself can stumble across them. and they alter and diminish. and sometimes you can remember only the things you want to remember, not everything.
i dont wear the jewelry. i just have it. im still not sure if ill ever destroy it.
<3
love you
too
so much truth to these words. x
ReplyDeleteI dont wear the jewelry, and i dont even have it. I cant remember what i did with it; maybe i destroyed it and maybe i just three it out, i truly dont know.
ReplyDeleteIm married now (happened about a month ago). The last years have been good to me, i hope theyve been good to you as well.
<3 with love and memories