I'm bombing. I'm so useless at conversation. So inept in social situations.
A guy I met in Canada is staying with me for a couple so days, it's incredibly draining.
I just want to go home to my mum. Lame as hell.
Doesn't help that I'm sick and feeling sorry for myself.
I'm hoping he sleeps all morning so I don't have to face him for a while.
He's lovely. I kinda hoped something might happen between us, that we'd have a beautiful romance for a couple of days. Definitely not going to happen. I'm just so awkward.
And coughing everywhere.
Today we're going to go to the beach. It's sunny but COLD.
This weekend we had summer. It was beautiful.
All in all, not much studying has happened.
All I can think about is how huge that number on the scale was this morning.
How disgusting I've become.
I want to blame my medication but I know it's my own dam fault.
Nothing fits. I'm trying to hide in hoodies but even they aren't big enough.
I'm so sorry for moaning after you all have been so lovely.
I just need some time on my own.
I am an introvert. I need time to recharge.
Thursday.
Can't wait.
I'm going to be busy again. I can feel it.
I just want to chill.
I just want to hibernate. If I sleep for long enough maybe those extra pounds will loose themselves.
If only.
<3
Yeah, I get fatigued really quickly when I it comes to interacting with other people. Us introverts need our time where no one is in our space. I hope that you make it out okay and the visit ends pleasantly and well. Maybe you can go for a nice solitary walk while he is sleeping?
ReplyDeleteI think it's hard to feel attractive when you have a cold.I'm basically quiet until I start paryting and then I make a fool of myself. I I think that's a good balance, at least for me now. <3
ReplyDeleteomg more setails about the canadian please! lol is he hot? try to be yourself and normal around him. like hes a highschool friend or something. lol and the 30 day shred is going well for me, i cant really say anything about it yet because im only on day 3 but i really enjoy it and i feel like its working for me. i got mine off amazon too so i say u should give it a try. it wont hurt. and omfg i WISH they had arm candy on amazon too, life would be perfect if they did
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ReplyDeletei thought i already posted a comment.. haha. silly me. darling, i hope the visit is over :) i find it hard to move when there are visitors in our house... and i do hope you'll do fine, though. loves!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you need a little space just to be yourself. I get that. It's why I concern myself about you but try to keep that distance between. It's hard, because regardless of what number the scale says, regardless of how you might feel right now, this Canadian guy thinks you're wonderful. xx
ReplyDeletehahaha omg he sounds super hott and a paramedic?? yum! so yea i think u should spend more time with him, show him around and go out for lunch or something ( like a secret date) and talk about his life and blah blah blah. but act like u want him but u dont, ya know? like let him chase you. and im sure hell like u, if not, then screw that canadian! we can just get our hot men off amazon :P hahaha good luck, and tell me how it goes!!!
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