Wednesday, 5 May 2010

Take some time to lie on the grass and think about all the things you still have left to do.

Today I wrote an email that made me think about where I am.
I spend too much of my time thinking about where I'm going, worrying about things irrelevant to today.
So many moments have passed me, and yet all I can think about is tomorrow. Or how stupid I was to say this or do that. I dwell on messing up far too much. We all make mistakes. We are all broken. Sometimes everything goes wrong. It's okay. Spend too long worrying about it, life will go on without you, leaving you miserable with your thoughts.

This evening, I'm making a commitment to myself to live in the present. I want to be aware of what is happening to me right now - what I am feeling and thinking. I am going to look at situations the way they are, and, without ignoring all that has been or is to come, I will give my full attention to the here and now. I will rejoice and be glad in it for this is the day that the Lord has made.

I go round in circles a lot. I've tried to live in the now before. Every time I fail. But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying. Today is a new day. It has plenty of tomorrows that can wait. Today is where it matters. If I go to sleep forgetting, I can always wake up and remember. I plan to.

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