Mainly, I do not know WHY I am still awake, it's 3am and I went to bed at 11.30 totally knackered.
Upcoming things: ESSAY, elections, driving, weekend away, essay2, flat mess, baking, physics labs,
I would like to curl up and hide.
Life is like a taxi. The meter just keeps a-ticking whether you are getting somewhere or just standing still. Lou Erickso |
I ate toast with nutella and banana because I could not sleep. Now I feel guilty. I want to purge. Instead I'll do sit-ups.
I made a website but I can't find it again.
Weird.
From tomorrow I will not eat chocolate, or crisps, and I will not drink alcoholic beverages.
Hopefully this way I will save some pennies and stop putting on weight and sluggishness.
I would like to recover my life, but sometimes I just fucking hate things.
I sometimes spend a long time trying to kill myself. I sometimes feel stupid for not just doing it.
Shame takes over the secrets we hide.
I feed on my own pain. I blame myself when it rains. I fake a smile for your own sake.
I feel guilty and I don't think I can ever forgive myself, even if I wanted to.
If you knew what I'm like inside, you'd hate me too.
School makes me want to hide away too. Don't worry just do it and soon it will be over. Summer is almost here.
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