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I want to raid the bin.
I threw out my razor blade this morning and now I feel like I need it.
I'm dreading summer.
And holidays with the parents.
Every time I eat it makes my stomach so sore.
And then I feel sick because I ate.
But I also feel hungry some times.
I feel I should be in control of me.
I do not want to wear other people out with looking after me.
I hate it. I just feel so stupid.
I feel stupid and pathetic most of the time.
I feel like a moapy spoiled child.

oh my gosh, I think someone just stole a child on hollyoaks, jealous.

But anyways.
I do not know what to do. If I let it out, I crush the people around me and feel like an idiot. I can't keep it in tho.
I want to be thin, I also want to be drunk. Getting drunk is easier than getting skinny but makes me want to die more.
pah.
I don't know why I'm writing, I have nothing to say.
I'm not even trying to justify my tears. Canne.
It's GA so I feel very alone. I don't want to be obsessive and needy, but I am.
I keep trying to break my phone as a reason to stay alone and make it harder for me to be so annoying.
Heather shut up.